Well then... holy funk it's been a year since my smogon namechange went through (or well, very soon since I'm writing this tuesday evening lol). Doesn't feel like a year but also holy it's been filled.
Probably putting this both on discord and my smog wall, so if you see this and don't know me at all, let me introduce myself quickly. My name is Memories, but also go by names and abbreviations such as Memo, Michelle (Iceheart) and Michi (Iceheart). 22 years of age from [REDACTED]. Primarily a 1v1 player but been dabbling in a few other tiers, more notably natdex/draft leagues and recently camomons (really fun tier to play, though could just be that I'm easily hooked).
Last year before name change, even before making my current discord account my main and the larp I did after, I was not in a good spot mentally. Maybe not depressed but I sure hated myself. Had trust issues with people over basically nothing, and ended up feeling like I was burning bridges with people. After I changed to having my current discord account be my main it became slightly better and even got new "friends"... granted some of these "friends" either just left the community/mons, changed a bit too much or I just stopped talking with for some reason. But it also helped me rekindle or even make certain friendships a lot better. Think I literally was up until like 2AM talking with one, let's call them Itchy, night towards the next day after name change went through on smog... oh also that day conversation started was a tuesday and as such we talked until the night to a wednesday. Don't remember how the next day was but I can imagine it wasn't the best of days lol. Also developed an... interesting habit during the year, doing pfp bets with someone. It's fun, little to none punishment for losing (use pfps of opponents on discord and smogon, which usually isn't too humiliating but could just be that I've been getting "tame" pfps). Though, as of writing I'm on a 2 bet win streak (had slight issues last bet so we just cancelled that idea of a bet really); so maybe I should throw next time I play "thrax" so I can have more resources in the pfp category... even if have a bunch lol.
Anyways, during the year since my namechange I gained one friendship that I have to say has to be... maybe not god blessed but it's a friendship I probably couldn't ask more out of than I've gotten. Like, lumi (user in question) is really nice to talk to and also seem so caring when we talk. Also great at giving advice, like saying I should get sleep when I'm tired (I didn't listen and afterwards had an argument with an old friend... not my best evening). Anyways talking of sleep I think I should stop writing this first part and go sleep as it's 12:11AM lol. More to be written during the day ig! 
Some sleep and some word changing later; Mentioned some rekindling of some friendships, literally went from basically never talking with someone to talking about basically everything, or well a lot of discord stuff, some tours stuff and even some irl stuff. Though speaking of tours, I should really contact friends with badges about a tour "idea" (not exactly new concept) since I need at least help with tags... assuming I'll use like challonge for bracket, since bracketmaker (smog version) is locked behind badges, but that's something to figure out later... assuming I'll even get around to it which isn't guaranteed lol. (Would maybe feel a bit like I'm using friendship just for that, but I hope it won't feel like that... to both the friend and to me.) 
Anyways, during this past year, I've also somehow gotten a tour addiction... or well not "addiction" addiction, rather "I play in way too many tours" addiction. I somehow landed in 6 tours this week, with me needing to do building for 4 of them... surely I'll have time, right? Right? Ok, I'll have, it's simple building for 3 of them even if I have only built for 2. Should be fine though, as long as I do my uni work I keep procrastinating, even whilst writing this. That said, actually managed to hold another draft league season! During draft I was literally already defeated in my hope as skip  after skip happened, almost tempted to cancel it then and there. Luckily I didn't and things picked up... even if I had my slight downturns during the first weeks of the short season. And then the last couple weeks of the season happened. First someone dropped out due to being busy (can't blame them, just extra work which is horrid when I'm already shy enough as is), luckily found a replacement decently quickly... however turns out playing a couple games in first season didn't help them do too well... granted I had already said the team needed a miracle to make it to the playoffs so maybe that affected the whole thing. Then basically next day my opponent for the week said that they had lost interest/had a hard time motivating themselves to play, so that meant either having them force themselves to play rest of league or me find a sub... luckily I found a sub who had DL experience (and that I actually wanted to contact when I struggled to find coaches but shyness and "fear" of sounding weird (basically fear of burning a potential future bridge) stopped me from contacting then). Sadly they missed the playoffs because of 1 sad mistake which was not having contrary on serp.
Last serious part, during the past year I've had a hard time on and off knowing who/what the "real" me is. To this day I'm not that sure on most stuff around that but saw a term that sounded like it fitted... social chameleon. Unsure if that's actually the root or what that even really is, but it sounded plausible. That said, I do like to larp... maybe a bit too much online lol. Both in morally correct ways but also in morally questionable ways (the ones who know knows, won't dive deep on it but I'll mention that discord bots are waaay too advanced with ID). Will I get "cured" from it one day?Possibly the morally questionable way, since I'm not doing too much of that currently, but the morally correct way I'll probably never stop lol. Especially as long as I can keep PS alts somewhat hidden (cc: heyman...).
Talking of PS alts, having Fleeting Memories, Memories18, Dakota Moonblood, Michi & Michelle Iceheart, possibly also Paige Icegem and also Mindy Windtamer is quite the bunch and quite helpful for doing tour testing, playing different parts of ladder but also to larp/interact with people in different ways. And that's probably not even the final list lol. But whatever the future holds, I'm here for it.
Final notes, I've improved a lot mentally this past year and I hope the coming years are even better, especially as I now know my ways to handle stress in ways that won't backfire towards me, Also s/o Chris Numbers for one of the best statements during this past year.. "how did you go from a sports pfp to a rise one", sure gave me a chuckle... or maybe even a Shuckle. But yeah, what a journey, all starting from finding the rise pfp that I had at the start and of course have now (even if this time is just through today and will probably be changed tomorrow evening, either by losing a pfp bet or by me choosing something from my x amount of pfp's in archive. Thanks for the year and let's have a load more fun ones coming up! :D